YOU SAID:

must i always hate myself because of the status i hold

INTO JAPANESE

私は常に自分の地位のために自分自身を嫌わなければならない

BACK INTO ENGLISH

I must always hate myself for my position

INTO JAPANESE

私は自分の立場のために常に自分自身を憎まなければならない

BACK INTO ENGLISH

I must always hate myself for my position