YOU SAID:

hope would kill me, if I kept it up.

INTO JAPANESE

私はそれを続ければ希望は私を殺すだろう。

BACK INTO ENGLISH

Hope would kill me if I keep it.

INTO JAPANESE

私はそれを保持する場合、希望は私を殺すだろう。

BACK INTO ENGLISH

Hope would kill me if I hold it.

INTO JAPANESE

私はそれを保持する場合、希望は私を殺すだろう。

BACK INTO ENGLISH

Hope would kill me if I hold it.