YOU SAID:

I want to kill myself and never wake up

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自殺して絶対に起きたくない

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I never want to wake up after committing suicide

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自殺した後は絶対に起きたくない

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I definitely don't want to wake up after committing suicide

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自殺した後は絶対に目覚めたくない

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I definitely don't want to wake up after committing suicide